i did not expect to ever be writing this, but; i have been really busy!
those who follow my instagram (and have enjoyed my toilet selfies hah.) already know i've been in a chronical pain treatment for the past few months.
it's something i had been waiting for a long time
and i think it really is something that is helping me get further.
over the years i have grown to ignore the signs my body gave me during the day
and i am learning to listen to it again.
even though my body is screaming most of the time.
my grandfather and grandmother have both died in the past four months
and to bury them so shortly after eachother has been hard on the whole family, especially my mum.
i still can't fully comprehend that they are actually gone.
the other day i wanted to write a postcard, and almost bought one for them, too.
i am rediscovering the dutch language through the singer
and thinking about writing my mind here in my mother language as well.
i am slowly changing, and for the first time i'm not actually afraid
but excited, most of the time.